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[Fanfic] Having the courage in Taking the Next Step

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Well here is the first chapter of Kirstie Anne's and my collaboration story. Hope you enjoy!!

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Having the Courage to Take the Next Step
Chapter 1
Finding Myself
My life has always been a helpless one. Even when I was younger, I knew that my life was nothing more than what it was. My life was useless and my mom would take every chance she had to remind me of that.
So it wasn’t surprising when my mom abandoned me. A part of me had always known that she would leave. I couldn’t be like Alicia, so why would she stay? I was nothing, so I was prepared to live my useless life alone.
A woman by Lindy Harlaown adopted me. She was a nice lady and had a son named Chrono. My adopted mother loved and cared for me, but it didn’t take away the loneliness I felt inside of my heart.
I remember going to the playground as I always did after school. I would watch all the other kids playing with their friends and having fun. I was so jealous because I had no friends and I wanted one badly. And out of nowhere….she appeared.
She was a cute brunette with blue ocean eyes. I was shocked when she came up to me asking if I wanted to play with her. No one had ever asked me that before, so I was a little hesitant, but I agreed anyway.
I had never laughed or had so much fun in my life and it was all because of the little brunette named Nanoha. We would always play together at the playground and when I found out that she lived next door to me, we were practically inseparable.
Even after the years passed, Nanoha and I were still always together. Thinking back to those days, I noticed that my life didn’t feel so useless anymore. I had never been so happy in my life and it was all because of Nanoha. She even helped with my relationship with my adoptive family and she made me realized that they were just important to me as she was.
Nanoha…. was my everything. She was always my ear to talk to. She was my shoulder to cry and lean on. She was my rock….the only one that could keep me happy. She was my best friend and that was how I always wanted us to be.
One day, Nanoha had called me and said that she needed to talk with me about something. I had noticed that her voice wasn’t as cheerful as it usually was, but very sad. I rushed over her house to find her room dark and gloomy. Nanoha lay slumped over on the edge of the bed with her head down. I was so worried about her. Nanoha was usually cheery and could easily light up the room. Now…I couldn’t even describe it.
I called out her name, but she didn’t answer. I made my way over to where she was, touching her shoulder as I called her name out again. She looked at me this time. Her eyes were puffy with cheeks stained with tears. I was really scared right now. What was going on with her and when I asked, I still didn’t get a reply.
She just sat there and I just stood there looking at each other. I was waiting for her to say something….anything. Then she moved.
She removed herself from the bed and stepped closer to me….closer than she had ever been. It shocked me to the point that I didn’t know what to do. So I just stood there not really knowing what was going to happen next.
What happened next confused me. Nanoha’s hands caressed my face. That wasn’t what confused me because Nanoha would do that from time to time, but what confused me was how she caressed me. It seemed more….intimate than how it would usually feel.
I tried really hard to figure out what was going on with Nanoha, but her face held so many emotions at that moment that I couldn’t figure it out. Her hands stop moving and her fingers trace my lips as she looked at them intently. I didn’t know why, but a shiver ran down my spine. I didn’t know what that shiver meant, but it was forgotten when something else replaced it as Nanoha’s lips touched mine.
I stood there wide eyed. Nanoha was kissing me. Why? I thought back to her eyes before she kissed me and it became clear to me. Nanoha was in love with me. I was shocked at the new revelation and the kiss on top of that. But for some reason, I didn’t push her away. And for some other reason, I found myself kissing her back.
I had never felt anything like this before. It was my first kiss. I never knew that it would be so….electrifying. I found myself feeling the need to explore this feeling more. And so I ran my tongue across Nanoha’s lips, which she immediately opened and allowed me to explore her. She tasted so sweet and it was so addicting that I wanted more of it, but I had to catch my breath.
I hadn’t realized what was going on until Nanoha looked at me with desire radiating from her eyes and leaned in towards me again. I stopped her though. What was going on? I was so confused and overwhelmed at what I was feeling that I had to leave and so I ran out of her house before anything else could happen.
I wasn’t mad because she kissed me. It was the fact that I didn’t mind Nanoha kissing me that scared me more. And because of that, came my next problem. Was I gay?
I never really thought about what I wanted when it came to dating or being in a relationship. Truthfully, I never really thought about boys or girls. All I was worried about was Nanoha. Since the day she came into my life, she took over my world. And when she was around, all I saw was her. Did that mean that I was gay because of that….because I always wanted to be with Nanoha? I didn’t know and it made me really frustrated with myself.
That kiss changed everything for me. My mind was always occupied with unwanted thoughts about Nanoha…about myself. I had never been so doubtful about myself in my whole life and I couldn’t figure out why. Why was I reevaluating myself?
It was clear from the kiss that Nanoha was in love with me, but was I in love with her? I loved Nanoha. She was my best friend, so of course I loved her. But why did I not break the kiss and why did I kiss her back? Why did it feel so right for me to kiss her and for her to kiss me?
I didn’t want to give an answer to that because it could mean only two things. It would mean that I was in love with her as well and that I was gay. Was I even ready to admit that?
Being gay wasn’t accepted at all. There wasn’t anything good that could come out of being found out as being gay. There was always danger, whether it was verbal, physical or emotional. And I continued to think over and over in my mind….was I ready to face that danger? And I knew the answer right away….I wasn’t. So in order to run away from my internal issue, I avoided it, which meant I avoided Nanoha.
Avoiding Nanoha was the hardest thing that I had to do. How could I avoid her when she was the main source of my happiness? She was the reason I could live life, but I had to do it in order to stay in denial.
Every time she would come around, I would walk the other way. Since we lived next door to each other, I was extra careful about running into her. I knew that my actions were hurting her and I was hurting because I knew that I was, but that was the only thing that I could do at the time.
And then one day….we ran into each other. She looked sad, I was looking terrible. Avoiding Nanoha wasn’t helping as much as I thought it would and it definitely was clear to me now, but I still didn’t want to talk about it.
We just stood there. I didn’t know what to say and it was clear that Nanoha had a lot to say but didn’t know how. After a deep breath, all I could say was that I was sorry for avoiding her and that I needed time to myself. Her face displayed so much pain. How could it not? If the tables were turned, I would be devastated. But even though it pained me, I thought I was doing what was best for us….or maybe what was best for myself. But she nodded and gave me the space that I needed.
As much space as I had, it wasn’t working. My mind was still in disarray. I felt so suffocated by my emotions that I just wanted to get away…..and so I decided to do just that. I had decided that after I graduated, I would leave. To go to some quiet place. Maybe then I could figure out what was going on with me.
I told my mom what I was going to do and she understood my actions. I just didn’t know if I should tell Nanoha about them. Was it wise for me to tell her or was it stupid for me to not to? After much debating, I decided to tell her. She was my friend and I thought that the least I could do was tell her that I was leaving for awhile.
I didn’t know how I was going to tell her, but I told her to meet me on my back porch later that night. Of course, the awkwardness was a given because we hadn’t talked or been in each other’s presence for a few months. But we couldn’t just stand there and say nothing. So I told her.
I waited for a reply, but didn’t get one right away. I had been expecting it, so I wasn’t surprised when it actually happened. I could tell she was hurt, confused, and her facial expression was very thoughtful. I wondered what she was thinking, but I knew that it wasn’t good.
When she did reply, all she said was that she was sorry. And I immediately knew that she was referring to the kiss. She must have thought that I was leaving to get away from her, but before I could tell her, she attempted to leave.
Her face showed surprise when I grabbed her arm to stop her. It even surprised me. We hadn’t touched in so long and it felt almost strange to touch her again, but I didn’t want her to leave like that. I didn’t want her to leave thinking that the reason I was leaving was solely because of her.
And my heart broke. It broke because I had caused her further pain and that I had caused the tears threatening to fall from her eyes. And without thinking, I pulled her into my arms and held her tightly. I held her as she cried….I cried that night too.
After calming down, I released her. Softly wiping the tears away before placing her cheeks within my hands; caressing them softly. I told her that I was leaving not because she kissed me, but because that kiss made me feel something that I wasn’t ready to admit to myself. I told her that I needed time to figure myself out and when I did, I would come back to her and I hoped she would welcome me with open arms.
She surprised me when she smiled. Oh how I had missed seeing it and it made me happy that I could see it once again before I left. She grabbed my hands and held them tightly, before saying that she would wait as long as it takes. I couldn’t help but smile at those words. It made me very happy to know that.
We stood there in silence. Still looking in each other’s eyes as I caressed her cheeks. That was the first time that I actually wasn’t sure if I wanted to leave. Could I actually go without seeing Nanoha? She meant the world to me. So could I actually leave her for who knows how long? I knew that I couldn’t, but it was what had to be done. Maybe that would make us stronger in the long run, but it was still hard.
I noticed how beautiful Nanoha was under the moonlight. She was like an angel….she was my angel. Something came over me in that moment and I leaned in. Her eyes closed slowly as our breaths collided. I was so close that I could feel her lips, but at the last second, I moved and placed a kiss on her cheek.
I wasn’t ready to go there yet, but I made sure that the kissed lingered on her cheek. I at least wanted her to know that she had some place in my heart, even though I wasn’t sure where exactly.
When I pulled away, burgundy bore into blue and vice versa. And I told her that I loved her and I meant it even though I didn’t know what type of love it was. She told me the same and after saying our good-byes, that would be the last time we saw each other for many years.
How naïve I was back then to not realize that I was head over heels for this girl. It took me many years after I had left and attempting to date guys to figure it out. No matter who I was with, I couldn’t get her face out of my mind. Avoiding Nanoha didn’t help. Leaving didn’t help either, because even after five long years, I would always end up thinking about Nanoha.
And that’s when I accepted it. I accepted the fact that I loved Nanoha and that I was gay because I couldn’t deny it anymore. There was nowhere for me to escape, so I came to embrace it. It was something that I couldn’t control and as much as I wanted my feelings for her to stop, it didn’t. It seemed to grow in fact. And holding on to those feelings and with my sexual orientation, I finally felt whole and had some sort of internal peace.
It’s been so long since I’ve been home. I’m a little scared to go back. It’s not because of my family or friends, but one person in particular. Nanoha.
How was I going to face her? I left her….I left our friendship. What would she think of me when we would meet again? If we even meet again. Maybe that’s what scares me the most. What if Nanoha wouldn’t want to see me? What then? Would she be waiting for me like she said?
I don’t know, but I want to make things right between us even if I didn’t deserve it….deserve her. So now is a great time more than ever to do what I should have done a long time ago.
I think it’s time to go back home and get the woman that I love.

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Mhm, very nice Sam me lad, hope tah see more of this soon.

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Thanks my friend. I appreciate it :)

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Looks like it'll be an interesting story, I'm eager to see the next chapter.

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Yeah...I'm hoping it will be interesting. I wrote the first chapter. Don't really know what Kirstie and I have planned for the next chapter. Thanks for reading....again.LOL :)

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Yay! Another Sam-chan journey of NanoFate phantasmagoria!
10 gold coins to Yuki says that Yuuno's somehow wormed his way into Nanoha's heart in the absence which leads to a love triangle.
I will be pleasantly surprised if I'm wrong.

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LOL....we'll just have to see who'll get the gold coins. Truthfully, I don't even know what's going to happen next, but we shall see :)

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Chapter 2 is up. Enjoy!!

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Having the Courage in Taking the Next Step
Chapter 2
Going back home
I was very anxious as I aboard the train that will take me back to the woman I love. I look outside the window as memories of us together, flashed in my mind. I smiled a bit remembering how everything started, from the playground, to us being best friends, to our first kiss.
My smile faded when I remembered it. Thinking if she still loves me, if she's really waiting for me. I wonder what happened to her the past years I was gone. We have a lot of catching up to do. I hope she won't hate me after what I've done.
Time moved on so fast, it seemed like it was only yesterday when she came up to me, asking me to play with her. I wish that everything would be alright; I hope she's still the same cute and bubbly Nanoha I know and love.
The train was moving fast, the next stop was my destination. Nervousness took over my whole being as the train moved closer and closer to my destination; the place where I left everything; from my family to my friends and especially her.
The train slowed to a stop, as the mechanical doors opened I felt the world slow down around me. I hesitantly took my baggage and go out the door. I stepped out of the train then looked around my surroundings. I walk slowly out of the station and felt the wind; I smiled as I looked at the view. Nothing changed much, it was still the same place I lived almost half of my life. I look up and saw the sun was setting.
I walk down the low stairs and called a cab. I loaded my baggage on the trunk and entered the cab. I look out the window and enjoyed the view. It really was the same place after all and I felt a smile coming up when we pass by a certain playground, where everything started.
As we neared the street of my house I silently hoped and prayed that everyone would accept me, accept me for who I am, accept me as the same Fate they knew all those years ago.
The cab stopped in front of the gate of my house. I paid him and went out. The cab drove past me and I turned around to look at the house. Everything's still the same, same color, same garden, same gate, same garage, same everything. But I was hoping that the people will be the same as well.
I entered the gate and looked around before going straight to the front door. I took my keys and opened the door inconspicuously. I poked my head and noticed that the house was quiet. As I entered, I dragged my baggage and took off my shoes before going to the living room.
I look around and I noticed a light in the kitchen, I stealthily walk towards it and I poked my head inside. I smiled at the view Okaa-san making dinner. How I missed this. I entered fully and whisper a soft "I'm home."
Okaa-san turned around in light speed and I walked towards her. Her eyes were so wide, and she was shaking. I hugged her softly and whispered it again. "I'm home."
Her tears wouldn't stop and she was saying my name again and again. I pulled away from her and we were shoulder length away from each other.
"Welcome home." She whispered with a smile "Did you eat yet?" She turned back to her cooking and I leaned against the wall. "Go take a shower and then go back down here then we'll eat together, okay?" She said lovingly, she's still the same after all these years. I nodded then went upstairs to my room.
I opened the room and I felt happiness wash over me. My room was still the same, my desktop computer seemed untouched and my bed still the same but seemed a bit tidier. I put my baggage down beside my bed. I lay down for a while smiling as I saw the glowing stars I put when I was young still there.
I sat up then opened my baggage, taking a few clothes; a long sleeved striped shirt and a pair of black shorts. I went to bathroom and took a quick shower, dressing quickly. I went downstairs while combing my hair.
I saw Chrono watching TV and I approached him stealthily, I covered his eyes with my hands and he seemed a little surprised. I laughed at his reaction then he removed my hands slowly from his face. He turned around then I laughed harder when I saw his shocked expression.
"I'm home" I told him softly. He suddenly hugged me and I was surprised but I hugged him back anyways. He whispered a "Welcome back" before he released me.
He looked me up and down and frowned a bit. I insecurely sat down on the sofa and he's still looking at me. I stared at him then he suddenly pouted.
"You grew taller." He said like a little kid.
"What about it?" I asked smiling.
"You're now as tall as me and I'm supposed to be taller." He pouted then turned his head away. I laughed at his antics and I thought about teasing him.
"So what, your little sister is as tall as you, what about it?" He suddenly launched at me and tickled me non-stop.
"My, my, I'm getting jealous. Who's that girl supposed to be?" Amy walked down the stairs as my laughter subsided. I waved a simple hi as I was trying to get my breath back.
"Oh my gosh, is that you Fate?" She asked in an excited tone. I nodded a bit and sat up straight smiling at her.
She hugs me with such force that I fell back down on the sofa again. I hugged her back and then she stood up then sat beside Chrono. I smiled at them, seems like my family's still the same.
"The three of you, dinner's ready!" Okaa-san shouted then the three of us stopped our conversation then went to the kitchen.
We talked about what happened during the past years that I was away. I'm glad that everything was fine minus Chrono, still annoyed about the fact that I grew taller which all of us laughed at. I also told about what happened to me, I told them about the job I got there and everything. It seemed like I was never gone.
A doorbell stopped our conversation and I volunteered to get it. As I opened the door my eyes opened wide and I felt my heartbeat go wild. Everything seemed to slow down as blue eyes stared into burgundy. She seemed to be surprise too from the way she's staring at me.
"Nanoha" I whispered then she smiled.

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Oh, I read this one a time ago in fanfiction.net, good stuff.
I can't wait for your next update~

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Fate's return back home is heartwarming, I wonder what'll happen with Nanoha.

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Chapter 3: Nanoha enters, and Yuuno comes in after, introduces himself as her boyfriend. Fate's heart falls apart. Bettin' 10 more gold on this. Make me lose!

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You're on my friend. your gold pieces will be mine. I write the next chapter. (Laughing evil laugh). LOL

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Behind Nanoha Hayate or Subaru shows up with a happy face :D
Well after reading this story from start, I wonder why Nanoha would get a boyfriend, after all she was the one who thought everything through and had courage to kiss Fate first, meaning discovering she may be gay(like girls in general), which took Fate so much more time to realise.
So giving Nanoha a proper girlfriend instead of standard Yuuno bf story, be it Hayate or Subaru, would be more interesting :P
Fate wouldn't have a boobs advantage this time :D

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Chapter 3 is up. Enjoy

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Chapter 3
First Date
Nanoha and I were sitting in my room on my bed. Nothing could be heard, but our breathing. Maybe my heart beating out of my chest could be heard as well. The silence was making me nervous, but I couldn’t seem to speak. I needed to calm down. I was making this bigger than what it was. I already knew what I want to say. All I had to do now was say it.
I cleared my throat. “S-so how have you been?” That definitely didn’t come out like I wanted it to. Hopefully I didn’t sound too much like an idiot.
“Good for the most part. I’ve been coming over the years just to see if you had returned. I was really surprised to see you because I didn’t know when you would come back from wherever you went. You know, you took your precious time” she said teasingly.
“I’m sorry” I giggled, but I really did mean it.
“Did you find what you were looking for?”
“Yes. Yes I did” I said not looking at her.
Memories of my five year journey came to mind. How naïve I was then, but now I know what I want. I just hope that Nanoha will have me.
“And?” she asks curiously.
I turned to Nanoha in that moment. Her eyes were filled with so many questions. It was almost as if she was begging to know the answer to the question just asked. Of course she wanted to know. She was waiting all these years for this specific day. This day that would change our lives forever.
I smile. I smile the best smile that I could come up with. I wouldn’t deny my love anymore because….it was in front of me the whole time.
“I found out that I love you. I’m sorry it took me so long to realize it”
Nanoha was silent, which I’m not going to lie….scared me to pieces. The unexpressive face she had on wasn’t helping me calm down either. All I could do was wait and hope for the best.
And then she smiled.
“I forgive you Fate-chan, but if you had me waiting any longer, I would have had to find someone else”
We both started laughing. It was funny, but I was relieved. It was great that I came when I did, but I’m pretty sure Nanoha would have wanted like she said she would and it made my heart flutter.
When the laughter died down, our eyes met once again. Nanoha had become so beautiful. She was breathtaking. Her eyes seemed to sparkle more than I had remembered. Everything just seemed to be perfect about her. She was too perfect to touch, but I did it anyway.
I reached out to touch her cheek. Her skin was so soft. Soft like a baby’s, which needed to be touched with care and that’s what I did. I caressed her cheek gently, gliding my thumb across her cheek as soft as I could. Nanoha leans into and places her hand over mine and caresses it. I was in heaven. This was what I wanted, but what I wanted more than ever was a kiss. I wanted to give Nanoha a real kiss this time. One where I wouldn’t hold back anymore and Nanoha would be sure of my love for her. So I lean in closing my eyes and….
“Hmph” I open my eyes to see Nanoha with her arms crossed, eyes closed, pouting lips and her nose up to the ceiling. “I just don’t give out kisses to anyone, especially when I haven’t been properly taken out on a date”
“Well technically, you kissed me before and we weren’t even dating yet”
“Hmph. That doesn’t count. Don’t think that you can just walk in here and everything will be peachy. You have a lot of making up to do Fate T. Harlaown”
“Okay okay. I get it” I chuckled. Nanoha was so cute. “Will you go out on a date with me Nanoha Takamachi?”
“Will you take me somewhere nice?” she said still with her pouting face.
“Yes and I promise I will be a gentlemen. So what you say? Go out with me tomorrow night?”
Nanoha finally turned to look at me. Her face seemed to light up and she literally crushed me into a hug.
“Of course I’ll go on a date with you”
YESSSSS!!! I could finally take Nanoha out properly. I was so happy, but it was short lived when my happiness was replaced with almost having a massive heart attack. Soft lips lingered for a little before removing themselves from my now blushing cheek. I turned to Nanoha with a shocked expression on my face, but she only smiled before saying….
“I missed you, Fate-chan” A smile made its way to my lips.
“Me too. More than you’ll ever know”
~0~
I stood outside the door of Nanoha’s apartment. I had on a white shirt with a black tie, black slacks and dressy black flats. I also carried the dozen roses that I hoped that Nanoha would love. I knocked on the door, which was quickly opened.
“Hey Fate-chan”
“….” I didn’t really. More like couldn’t reply.
Nanoha was beautiful. She wore a black dress that hugged her body with matching black heels. Her hair was up in a bun and her eyes and neck was graced with a beautiful matching gold necklace and earring set. There were no words that could describe it.
“Fate-chan?” I flinched. She scared the shit out of me. I was so wrapped up in her beauty that I forgot about my surroundings.
“I’m sorry. You look beautiful Nanoha”
“Thank you. You don’t look too bad yourself”
“Thanks. Oh, I almost forgot” I held out the flowers to her. “These are for you” She took the flowers and brings them to her nose.
“They smell lovely. Thank you Fate-chan”
“You’re welcome”
“I’ll be right back. I’ll put them in water” she turns to go back inside, but stops when I speak.
“Aren’t you going to invite me in?” she looks at me over her shoulder.
“Not on the first date” she winks at me before proceeding in the house.
I couldn’t help, but smile. Nanoha was definitely playing hard to get.
I waited about a minute before Nanoha came walking back out and locked the door.
“Shall we?” I held out my arm for her.
“Yes please” she took my arm and we made our way towards the elevator.
“Fate-chan?”
“Hmm?”
“Where are you taking me?”
“It’s a surprise”
~0~
We had walked inside Frutali’s, which was one of the most well know Italian restaurants in Uminari. It was one of those hard to get into places and I could tell that Nanoha was surprised when we walked inside.
We made our way over to a table by the window. The view of the ocean was beautiful. This was going to be a perfect date. I could just feel it.
I pulled out Nanoha’s chair.
“Thank you” she says before sitting and then I made my way over to my seat.
A waiter soon came by and handed us menus before asking for our drinks. We both ordered water and after writing it down, the waiter left.
“Fate-chan, how were you able to get us a table? It’s extremely impossible to get a table here”
“I have connections” I said proudly. I definitely wasn’t going to tell her I begged my mom to get us a table since she knows the manager.
“I’m impressed”
“You should be. I learned a lot while I was gone”
“And what was that?”
“Something that’s not really suitable for the first date” I laughed and Nanoha soon followed.
The waiter came back and placed our drinks on the table. We told him what food we wanted and he left after writing it down.
“So…”
“So?”
“So tell me about what happened when you left”
“Well that’s a long story”
“Well, we have a lifetime for you to tell me” she smiled and I smiled because of what she just implied.
“I went to America and I lived in New York the whole time I was gone”
“How was it?”
“It was great. The people, the lifestyle, the night life were great. I had so much to explore, so much to get myself into but….”
It wasn’t the same. Living somewhere without Nanoha would never feel like home to me.
“But?”
“But…life wasn’t the same without you there with me Nanoha”
I looked into her eyes. Her eyes were twinkling like little stars and a faint blush was spreading across her cheeks. She was simply adorable.
“Everything I did, everything I tried to do….I could never get away from you. I even tried to date guys, but it wasn’t the same for me. That kiss that you gave to me did some serious things to my heart Nanoha and I was so naïve not to realize how much I loved you”
I held out my hand across the table and Nanoha placed hers in mine. I could see tears brimming around the edges of her eyes.
“Nanoha, believe me when I say that I love you. I really do. I want to apologize if I hurt you all those years ago, but if you would let me….I want to make it up to you baby”
Her tears finally escaped her eyes and I gave her hand a lite squeeze. I hoped that she would really give me this chance. I’m not the same scared little Fate anymore. Running wasn’t an opinion anymore. I wanted Nanoha more than anything.
Nanoha smile that angelic smile. Nanoha you just don’t know what that smile does to me.
“Fate….never leave me again, okay?”
“Never again”
~0~
Nanoha and I had a wonderful night. We talked more about our lives a part and about how Chrono’s mad because I’m taller now. It was so good to be with her again laughing. That’s how I always want it to be….Nanoha smiling.
“Thanks for taking me out Fate-chan. I really had a great time” she said has we stopped in front of her apartment door.
“I had fun too. Maybe I’ll take you out again sometime”
“You better”
We both laugh. Nanoha was really something. She’s more open and free now. I loved her so much.
I tuck a strand of hair behind Nanoha’s ear before resting my hand on her cheek. She looked up at me and I looked down at her. I think we both wanted the same thing at that moment.
“So, since I took you out on a proper date, can I have that kiss?”
“I don’t know” she said as she stood on her tippy toes to wrap her arms around my neck. “I still have to think… about… it” and before I knew it, our lips met.
Mmmm, those lips tasted so heavenly. The kiss was soft, but passionate. Somewhere along the line, Nanoha’s hair became undone and my hands explored her hair as I pulled her closer to me. I never wanted to let her go….not ever again. I loved her so much and I hoped that it showed in this kiss how much I did.
Reluctantly, I broke the kiss. I was starting to get carried away. Nanoha looked like she was going to pounce on me in any second, so it definitely wasn’t helping me. I kissed her lips once more, before kissing the hands that I removed from my neck.
“Good night Nanoha. I love you”
“I love you too Fate-chan. Good night”
I kissed her hand once more before making my way to the elevator.
“Fate-chan!”
“Yes?” I look at Nanoha curiously. She shouted rather loudly.
“I don’t want to be alone. Can you hold me tonight?” she was blushing from ear to ear as she told me that, but I didn’t care. She needed me there, so I would not deny her.
“I’ll hold you every night”

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The time they share together is sweet. :3